Poetry

Limitless

“On the outside, I may seem lost —
because I am. But know this, my love,
on the inside, my love for you is limitless.”

How many times do I need to remind you that I’m resilient? My skin doesn’t bruise easy, but underneath is a different story. I still feel every broken part of me, and I fear they will remain that way forevermore. My face may appear confident, but underneath, sometimes I can’t help but scream for someone to see what lies behind my eyes. On the outside, I may seem lost, unaffectionate, and timid — because I am. No matter how much I want to reach out to you, my body remains still. But know this, my love, on the inside, this love I carry for you is limitless.

© Sarah Doughty
2019

Please don’t ever
forget how much
I love you
and all you are.

Poetry

No More Silence

“These words were never yours to silence.
Only I have the power to set them free.
And no one can take them from me.”

For some time now, I’ve been lost in between the words that hang upon the tip of my tongue. They want nothing more than to drip from my lips but my throat utters no sound. It’s as if I’ve lost a piece of me. A large one. Because words are where I find magic. They’re where I can breathe life into my dreams, paint the skies with a kaleidoscope of color that burst into being like fireworks in the night. They are the blood rushing through my veins, and the passion in my heart. But I feel them with me, waiting to escape like a caged animal hoping for freedom. How they whisper to me in the darkness. These words were never yours to silence. Only I have the power to set them free. And no one can take them from me as long as I draw breath.

© Sarah Doughty
2019

Never again will I
allow this silence
to overcome me.
I deserve better.

Poetry

Risking It All

“From that moment I held you,
I knew I’d risk everything to make you
happy and whole again.”

I could never quite figure you out. But I suppose that was part of your allure. You were a mystery I couldn’t help but solve. I wondered why you’d erected those walls around you, like you needed to protect yourself — and all I wanted to do was hold you tight and promise I’d be your shield forevermore. I couldn’t help but notice the broken look you tried to hide behind your eyes, and it only made me want to put you back together again. Because, my love, nothing you have ever done or could ever do would change the way I feel about you. From that moment, I knew I’d risk everything to make you happy and whole again.

© Sarah Doughty
2019

Like you deserved to be,
every moment
for the rest
of your life.

Poetry

Drawing Breath

“You’re alive. Don’t dwell on
the darkness in your past. Dare to live
while you still draw breath.”

I see the smudges of oil embedded in your clothes and I begin to wonder what happened. But I couldn’t bring myself to ask. You see, I saw the look in your eyes. The one where you’re certain you just cheated Death. Or at the very least, witnessed the flash of silver of the scythe in the darkness and wondered why you weren’t chosen. Take solace in that fact. You’re alive. So don’t dwell on those things in your past that try to drag you down. Dare to live while you still draw breath.

© Sarah Doughty
2019

And then,
when it is time to go,
you’ll know
you lived as best you could
with the time you had.

Poetry

Seeing Ghosts

“I see ghosts of you wherever I go.
Those reminders are all I have left of you.”

I see ghosts of you wherever I go. In the corners of my eyes, I see you passing by, and my breath catches in my throat. Sometimes I can smell you, that woodsy scent that always made me feel at peace. Or I’ll catch you whispering to me in the space between sleep and wakefulness. Those are all I have left of you. Those are the reminders that you existed. That you had my heart before I ever met you. And beyond my last breath, I will never stop loving you. So, my darling, know that I’m still here. Your memory lives on. But most of all, I want you to know that you saved me.

© Sarah Doughty
2019

You saved me
every day.
And you loved me
anyway.

Poetry

Relentlessly In Love

“My love, you were there.
You have always been there.
That means everything to me.”

Relentless love. That’s the only thing I can think of when I think of you. How you refused to give me a chance to push you away. How you remained by my side through everything and never showed a moment of hesitation of misunderstanding. You were there, through all the good and the bad. Especially the bad. I can’t help but wonder how I found you. How I could be so lucky.

© Sarah Doughty
2019

You were there.
You have always
been there.
That means
everything
to me.

Poetry

Your Satellite

“It’s entrancing, feeling this love
you have for me. Loving you back
is the greatest thing I will ever do.”

This night, I’m your satellite. It’s this gravity I cannot escape. And as my heart circles your body like the wind that carries through the trees, I can almost feel your touch upon my skin. It feels as though I’m dancing to some unheard melody. Perhaps it’s merely the thoughts in your mind, or just something about you that sings to me. It’s entrancing, feeling this love you have for me. It’s beyond anything I could have ever imagined. And loving you back is the greatest thing I will ever do.

© Sarah Doughty
2019

Like a dream
come true.

Poetry

Heartbroken Soul

“I need you, darling, more than ever before.
And I don’t know how much longer
I can bear the weight of existing without you.”

This heart of mine, darling, has grown weak and weary, spending every beat calling your name into oblivion. A starless sky, mocking my desperation. It’s been far too long since I’ve heard your voice, or tasted your velvet lips. Even the smoke rising from a pyre cannot encompass the way your very scent could set my body at ease and yet, fill it with anticipation all at the same time. I need you, darling, more than ever before. And I don’t know how much longer I can bear the weight of existing without you.

© Sarah Doughty
2019

So please, come back to me
in my dreams and put
my heartbroken soul
back together again.

Earthen Witch, Poetry

How Lost I Am

“How can words express
how lost I am and will forever be
without you?”

And it is here, in this moment, after everything has fallen into silence, that I begin to crumble. It is here when I realized the full extent of your loss. The emptiness of my future, looking forward and knowing you won’t be by my side. As I stand with my hands open, palms up towards the sky, reality crashes down as I know I’ll never know the feel of your skin again. I’ll never know the taste of your lips, the smell of you, or hear the sound of your voice. In that moment, my heart shatters, knowing all I ever knew of you would forever be locked in my memory. And perhaps, that’s what hurts the most — not just losing you, but realizing my future will no longer have you in it.

© Sarah Doughty
2019

How can words
express how lost
I am and will
forever be without you?
How could I ever
fill this void
you’ve left behind?

Inspired by the hero
of my next novel of the
Earthen Witch Universe series.

Poetry

Offerings

“I wish I was worthy of you.
Because darling, you deserve so much more
than what I have to offer.”

Everything I’ve done, every choice I’ve made, and ever step I’ve taken has brought me closer to you. Though it still seems as though we are miles apart, I can’t help but wonder how things might be different if that barrier never existed between us at all. If all the pain I endured was nothing more than a bad dream and the love I felt for you would outlast both space and time — maybe then, I could’ve been someone worthy of you. Because darling, you deserve so much more than what I have to offer. You always have. And I can’t help but question what makes you stay.

© Sarah Doughty
2019

Either way, I’m grateful
to have you.
For being everything
I’ve ever needed
and more.