“Sometimes, I find myself
listening to sad songs because
all I really want to do is cry.”
Sometimes, I find myself listening to sad songs because all I really want to do is cry. Not just let some tears slip from my eyes. But sob. Let it all out like the world is coming to an end. And sometimes I do. I just can’t hold back any longer, even though I try to resist it.
But when I’m left needing more than a few songs and a few tears, that’s when I know I’m in a dark place. Over time, though, I’ve learned that taking off the mask and letting the sobs wrack through my body is what causes the cracks in my skin to show. Through those cracks, there’s light. So maybe, after all, it’s not so bad to let myself feel what I need to feel. Because then I can let the light back in.
© Sarah Doughty
2018
And we all could use
a little light now and again.
It’s like the concept of kintsugi. That is something I am trying to remind myself of. That the cracks can be filled with something beautiful.
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I need a good release. I always feel as though I am on a stage, someone is watching me, as though I have to behave myself. It makes me sound as though I am paranoid, but in the past, my privacy wasn’t held as sacred as I would have liked. I cry, but I always stop myself because I was called a crybaby at a formative time.
Also, I was bullied by own mother for showing emotions. I need a good sobbing session, but I haven’t been able to. Any songs you recommend?
“Through those cracks, there’s light.” That is beautiful, Sarah. I wish I could remember that.
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet.
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Ahh this was so heartbreakingly beautiful ❤
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WOW. Major relate ;(
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“Through those cracks, there’s light. So maybe, after all, it’s not so bad to let myself feel what I need to feel. Because then I can let the light back in.” I love this. Sometimes you just need to cry it all out.
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How very true this is Sarah, i too sob like that at times, and I know what you mean about not being able to hold it back in the end
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