“So please, hold me close
and make all this pain go away.”
This longing is becoming more than I can bear. I’m screaming on the inside at the top of my lungs and I’m certain even my eyes are vibrating from the force of it. But on the inside, I’m still. Silent. I’m putting forward a brave face. A mask no one even noticed I’m wearing. This was how I learned to survive. And no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to break out of this shell. I can’t bear to be so raw. So open. So vulnerable. I can’t seem to utter the words I long to speak the most. “I need you tonight.” So please, hear my call. Just this once. Hold me close and make all this heartache and pain go away. If only for a little while.
© Sarah Doughty
Can you hear me calling?