“Sometimes I wonder if I’m
the hero or the villain in my story.”
Sometimes I wonder if I’m the hero or the villain in my story. I know what I’ve survived. I know what I’ve overcome. And I know what demons I still need to fight. But I also know what kind of mark I’m leaving upon my loved ones.
I know I can’t show my love like a normal affectionate person. I know how sometimes any light or sound will make my head feel like exploding. I know my anxiety can make me restless and lose my temper. So I do wonder. Am I a hero for overcoming, but with a few flaws. Or am I the villain, for not being the person I should be for the ones I love?
© Sarah Doughty
2018
Either way, I’m not without flaws.
Sarah Doughty 
No, we are not flawless.
The fact that you are asking yourself those types of questions shows that you are NOT a villain.
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet.
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If we’re honest, we’re both although in some instances the victim depending on who the perp is!
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This is very true. I left the victim out purposefully. But it is an important role.
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True enough!
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I think we’re both, and it’s not the day that exhausts us, but the battle between them.
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Oh I’d have to agree with you there. It’s a constant struggle. But I suppose that’s what makes us redeemable in our flaws. We are still trying.
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Yes. And one might even consider it more charming; it’s one thing for someone to rest effortlessly in heroism and another for us to bite back villainy to make a a move of selflessness. Thanks for the exploration into our layered identities and breaking up the dull afternoon!
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It was my pleasure. I’m glad you were able to connect with this one.
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