Reliance

“And I know now that the only person
I can rely on is myself.”

Here I am again, with my heart shattering into pieces. I should be used to this sensation by now, feeling like I’m floating in space, but my lungs have yet to adapt to having no air. My skin is still frosting over from the bitter cold. And my mind is filled with unanswered questions and fragmented thoughts of how I found myself in this position. Again. It wouldn’t be so bad if it wasn’t just me and this deafening silence that surrounds me. Even when I try to scream, no sound escapes and it does nothing but make me crave to be back in your arms once more. But I know that will never happen. And I know now that the only person I can rely on is myself. Even though it hurts like hell, I know I’ll survive this too.

© Sarah Doughty
2018

For M.