“I was petrified of losing you,
so I tried not to love you. I fell anyway.”
I was petrified of losing you as if you were never more than a mirage, so I kept you out. And like the pieces of a chessboard, you took all my defenses and rearranged them, setting new rules. Before I knew it, you found your way in and I was left bared and vulnerable. But you never once hurt me. You wrapped yourself inside all that pain and separation to stand bastion, protecting me. It was far better than living with it all alone.
© Sarah Doughty
I tried not
to love you,
but I fell anyway.