“I’m clinging
to the last bits
of my humanity,
like the world
is slowly draining
me of my life force.”
Sometimes I feel as though I’m clinging to the last bits of my humanity, like the world is slowly draining me of my life force. Like it’s a vampire and I’m the victim. I refuse to let go, no matter how much barbarianism I encounter. No matter how much humanity remains outside of myself. I remain. A little pale, and weak, but holding with all my might. And sometimes, that’s enough for the world to let me live to see another day.
© Sarah Doughty
Gosh this is raw. Take care.
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Thank you so much!
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A very apt piece of writing Sarah, and so timely ! Every corner of the world seeks peace today. In the meantime, may we find peace within ourselves and share it with the world.
Much love ❤
Chhaya
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Thanks so much for the kind words! 💖💖
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Powerful writing Sarah. It’s a scream that a lot of us could add our voice to.
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Thank you so much!
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I’ve tried to like by a sort of mantra that very so slightly echos this “never let hope die”. It’s a pretty cheesy way to put it but I believe that you have to hold onto hope, even if it’s just to survive. If hope goes, so does your grip on life.
With all the horrors this world likes to throw at the innocents who dwell upon it, the chance to be overwhelmed is high. Having that tiny shred of resolve left is powerful and often necessary. One day at a time, but hold hopes hand and you’ll make it till the world settles and you can move onto bigger things.
Oh and just incase, hope in this case is the noun…. not that cheerleader who goes out at night dressed as batgirl…. that something else we shan’t go into here 😄
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Hahaha, I understand. Hope is always there, but sometimes there’s less of it to grip. 😊
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That’s why I’m developing military grade suction pads I order to attach to hope so you can always keep a firm grasp when there’s little to hold
I really feel I must stress I’m still not talking about that cheerleader 😄
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Hahaha, a wise investment.
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Quote: “The world is changing. I feel it in the water; I feel it in the earth and I smell it in the air.” (JRR Tolkien- Fellowship of the Ring) Of necessity, some writers fulfill the role of prophets in a society that denigrates such a possibility or need. Tolkien was such a prophet for the times following his writing days. The world is changing, currently not for the better, and sensitives are feeling these changes, also not for the better. Human bodies have been “trying” to keep up to these changes but too little too late. For myself, the way to cope is to find my “center” within myself while deliberately detaching more and more from all the basically pointless activity around me. I function through seeking joy and dealing with earth’s sorrow with as much grace as I can muster. If I were to engage the social changes as I used to when I was much younger my body would have shut down years ago. It’s just too much so let it suffice that I live my own life on my own terms as “impeccably” as I know how. It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that I have learned to recognize my limits, and it’s pointless to beat the air with one’s fists while screaming! 🙂
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You make a very good point with this one. No matter what I do, I can’t seem to escape the things that bother me. As a sensitive person, I’m trying to find that balance where I can find that center and with it, grace, but so far, I’m missing it. I’m still trying, though.
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The world we live in today is a dangerous place. I admire your courage to continue, Sarah and this is what I love about you. Keep walking.
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Thank you, as always! I’m too stubborn to do anything else. 😊
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You’re welcome 🙂
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I know 😦 seeing all the things going on in the world is truly heartbreaking. Humanity is now becoming strange. You put it excellently in the first part, it really takes everything in us to hold on.
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I wish there was a way to make things better, but unfortunately that’s going to take an awful lot of voices. More than the ones we have speaking out now.
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Wow, I know these thoughts! Powerful words.
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Thank you so much. I just felt the need to get them off my chest.
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I really relate to this too!
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Thank you for the kind words!
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I feel this too. There’s so much already and we need to have our own space once in a while so we won’t lose who we really are…
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I agree. The issue is finding what that safe place could be in a chaotic world we live in today.
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Reblogged this on The Phoenix Rises.
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No I really get this. I think day-to-day, there’s this casual desensitization going on in people’s lives. Turn on the news and all this horrible stuff is happening. Log onto Twitter and there’s a ton of drama and virtual fistfights. It’s very draining so you have to maintain a balance so you don’t lose yourself completely in the noise.
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Exactly what I was thinking
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Thanks, J. I responded to the comment, so I’m not sure if it notified you. You might want to read it. xoxo
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Yes, exactly. No matter where I turn, there’s something. I foolishly stumbled into Thirteen Reasons Why on Netflix without having any previous knowledge of the book, other than it was for YA about a decade ago. And by the time I realized it was going to drag me down, I was too frozen to look away. Usually when my migraines are too bad to write, and sometimes even read because of the eye strain, watching mind-numbing tv is all I can do to not get lost in my head. And this just handed me over to my demons on a silver platter. I think it was an eye-opener for sure, but I wasn’t prepared for it.
So, basically, I’m not sure how I can escape certain things anymore. Or if. But that doesn’t mean I’m going to abandon the effort of trying.
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Oh no I’m sorry you went through that! 😦 Usually I turn to my hobbies to escape because I can lose myself in them without the risk of getting triggered. I hope you’re doing well now. ❤
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